My life for the past two months have been such a blast. I enjoyed every single moment of it, so much that I forgot to even document it here or writing it down on my journal. High school life have been super busy for me, but I am having a very great time.
For high school, I moved to a totally new school 30 km away from my house. It means a lot of changing, especially on my sleeping schedule. It was ruined. Totally. Not that I am mad about it, anyway.
Meeting new people have always been a thing that I seem to have issues with, as friendly as I look. It is hard to fit yourself to a totally new environment and getting along with the new tradition and the way of living there.
It has been two months, and I think that I’ve learned a lot. So before I started to forget to write anything about it, might as well just post it here.
I learned that the only way I can grow is to get out of my comfort zone. It means that I have to get my own ass out of where I feel the most comfortable in to see and experience the worst, and the best situations. I have to do it, for myself.
In my old school, I felt comfortable because I know the people my whole life, I am close with the teachers, and I was doing good in almost every subject they have there. I used to think that being smart and being the best is a competition. But here, I met a lot of smart people and instead of thinking about them as a rival, they are someone I look up to now. I learned a lot from them and the way they think. They become my friends and right now, the only person I am having a competition with is between me and myself.
I survived the orientation process, which was, indescribably beautiful. It was almost life changing, even. I learned about honesty and simplicity, two keys of life that we don’t really see anymore nowadays. I built a connection with my new friends, and within three days, it feels like we have been family all this time.
There are a lot of new opportunities here. I get the chance to try new things, like learning cinematography and more about scriptwriting. I joined an english club in school and learn more about debate and presenting speeches! I become one of the committee for the upcoming school lustrum festival and I also am performing devile and is looking forward to Jambore!
At first, I hesitate a lot. I am afraid that I will not be able to keep up with all the activities that I signed myself up for. I am afraid of failing, so I want to make sure that I am always presenting my best self in front of anyone.
But that is impossible, either. No one is perfect. Everyone will always make mistakes. It is about being able to admit that and learn from it, so you don’t do the same in the future. Always being in the position of wanting to learn more and more, instead of thinking that you are the best and stop doing and creating anything.
Life has been amazing, and it has been more natural to make new friends. The last time I remember, I was this awkward little girl who had no idea how to make friends. Reading my older journals, it made me laugh at my old self for not being brave enough to even start a conversation.
Through connecting with new people, I learned that at the end, we all as humans will aways have something in common. Be it a hobby, an interest on a certain topic, or even just the same type of jokes. That was what makes us unique and most of all, interdependent.
Because one can not grow without another.
Because one can not learn without the other.
So if I had the chance to go back to my 14 years old self, I would told her that it is okay to be the one initiating a conversation! It might felt awkward at first, but understand that it will not last long.
Much, much, love.