Yet, Another Milestone

My life for the past two months have been such a blast. I enjoyed every single moment of it, so much that I forgot to even document it here or writing it down on my journal. High school life have been super busy for me, but I am having a very great time.

For high school, I moved to a totally new school 30 km away from my house. It means a lot of changing, especially on my sleeping schedule. It was ruined. Totally. Not that I am mad about it, anyway.

Meeting new people have always been a thing that I seem to have issues with, as friendly as I look. It is hard to fit yourself to a totally new environment and getting along with the new tradition and the way of living there.

It has been two months, and I think that I’ve learned a lot. So before I started to forget to write anything about it, might as well just post it here.

I learned that the only way I can grow is to get out of my comfort zone. It means that I have to get my own ass out of where I feel the most comfortable in to see and experience the worst, and the best situations. I have to do it, for myself.

In my old school, I felt comfortable because I know the people my whole life, I am close with the teachers, and I was doing good in almost every subject they have there. I used to think that being smart and being the best is a competition. But here, I met a lot of smart people and instead of thinking about them as a rival, they are someone I look up to now. I learned a lot from them and the way they think. They become my friends and right now, the only person I am having a competition with is between me and myself.

I survived the orientation process, which was, indescribably beautiful. It was almost life changing, even. I learned about honesty and simplicity, two keys of life that we don’t really see anymore nowadays. I built a connection with my new friends, and within three days, it feels like we have been family all this time.

There are a lot of new opportunities here. I get the chance to try new things, like learning cinematography and more about scriptwriting. I joined an english club in school and learn more about debate and presenting speeches! I become one of the committee for the upcoming school lustrum festival and I also am performing devile and is looking forward to Jambore!

At first, I hesitate a lot. I am afraid that I will not be able to keep up with all the activities that I signed myself up for. I am afraid of failing, so I want to make sure that I am always presenting my best self in front of anyone.

But that is impossible, either. No one is perfect. Everyone will always make mistakes. It is about being able to admit that and learn from it, so you don’t do the same in the future. Always being in the position of wanting to learn more and more, instead of thinking that you are the best and stop doing and creating anything.

Life has been amazing, and it has been more natural to make new friends. The last time I remember, I was this awkward little girl who had no idea how to make friends. Reading my older journals, it made me laugh at my old self for not being brave enough to even start a conversation.

Through connecting with new people, I learned that at the end, we all as humans will aways have something in common. Be it a hobby, an interest on a certain topic, or even just the same type of jokes. That was what makes us unique and most of all, interdependent.

Because one can not grow without another.

Because one can not learn without the other.

So if I had the chance to go back to my 14 years old self, I would told her that it is okay to be the one initiating a conversation! It might felt awkward at first, but understand that it will not last long.

Much, much, love.



Bali beaches, waves, sand, and all the beautiful mystical places [vol. 2]

Welcome to the second post from my series of blogsposts regarding my recent trip to the beautiful Bali Island with my friends. Just in case you haven’t read the first post, check it our first before proceeding to read this one.

In the first post, I told you guys about Bali and its temples which I visited. Here, I am going to tell you about Bali’s beautiful beaches that I visited.


On the second day, we went to Tanjung Benoa Beach. It is a very famous place in Bali to do many fun watersports, like banana boat, parasailing, flying fish, scuba diving, rolling donut, jetskiing, and visiting Penyu Island using a boat.

So, because I was traveling with like, all of my friends, all 140 people of them, I decided to not choose the watersports that will make me dirty or wet. Why? Because it will take a long time to  clean myself up and I would have to brought new clean clothes and pack the dirty one and brought it with me through the rest of the day.

So first, it was not worth the money versus the amount of energy I had to dedicate just to clean myself up after that. I had plenty of times in the future to go there again with my family and do any sports I want, but this time, because it was a trip with my friends, I wanted to make it count.

So I chose the boat trip to Penyu Island. Okay, we were all only sitting in quiet a big boat, along with 9 other people which were all my friends, enjoying the sea view and talking. It didn’t guarantee you to still be clean tho, because the driver (YES, the driver. He drove the boat STOP ASKING) kept doing crazy trick with the boat and tilt it crazily so yeah, a little bit water splashes here and there.

Still worth it.


We had to pay 75k per person, and the trip to the island (which was actually not an island tho, it was still located in Bali but on the other side of the beach) took around 15 mins.

I braided my hair v early in the morning before I left the hotel room, because long hair and salty air are not bestfriends. My hair will instantly got sticky and wet and just weird, so braiding it first did help me a lot later when I had to wash my hair up.



When you arrived there, you had to pay another 10k as the entrance fee. Foreigners, beware. They might ask you for higher price, thinking that you don’t have any idea about it. Always do a research beforehand so you will know how much the exact price are and you don’t overspend your money on like, wtf, entrance fees?!

The name Penyu Island was actually from this animals, penyu or turtles. But they actually had some other animals others than this, like birds and snakes and iguanas.





We spent around one and a half hour on the island before going back to Tanjung Benoa and met the rest of our friends. Some of mine decided to do the extreme sports and they were all busy changing their clothes and showering and having salty hair.

After lunch at a restaurant not so far from the beach, we went straight to the next destination, which was Uluwatu! It was the famous place where people watch Kecak Dance. Sadly, the kecak dance was held only around sunset, and we arrived there at the afternoon, so we only went there to take pictures and enjoying the view of the sea.


Entering temple means wearing appropriate clothes, which was sarong and sometimes with a sash. The provide this for you in the front gate so you don’t have to bring any. I was wearing a short black pants so I wore it. If you wear something below the knee, you actually don’t have to use the sarong to cover. But most people still wear it as a show of respect to the culture.


Uluwatu is also very famous for its monkeys. You will find the tour guides alarming you before you arrive there to always keep your belongings near to you, and be careful if you wear glasses or bringing cameras and handphones.

Years ago, Uluwatu had more monkeys than what I saw on my last trip. The monkeys are quiet big and yes, they do like to take our stuffs, like glasses and phones and bandanas, but only if you stand to close to them or if you are unaware of your surroundings. Also, if a monkey decided to hop to your shoulder, don’t ever scream. It will only make them afraid and might accidentally hurt you.








Yeay! After strolling around Uluwatu, we went to…. Pandawa Beach! I never been here before, and the place was very famous for people canoeing. I was so excited, and decided to just fuck it and rent a canoe with my close friend, Andrew. It cost 50k, which means 25k for each person. You can actually fit one more person in the middle of the canoe, but it only made the canoe more unstable.

It didn’t made me wet at all, because I brought my camera along and took a lot of pictures from it. But my shorts sure did got wet sitting on the canoe, so then because I didn;t bring any spare clothes, I bought a short pants in one of the stalls there. The seller asked for 45k, but I bargained hard and got it for 25k. Great deal!








After we were done and as the sky got darker, we got back to our buses and went straight to the last destination, which was our dinner spot! We went to Jimbaran, a famous area to find yummy BBQ seafood. After that, we went back to our hotel.

That was Day 2! I am going to update more of my trip on my next post. Until then!






Exploring Bali with the best peeps [vol. 1]

Last weekend, from May 28 to 31 of 2017, I went to Bali with my school friends from the class of 2016/2017. Usually our seniors went to Jogja each year but this year was different because we all voted to go to a different place this time.

We met each other exactly at 00.00 in the morning at school, and went to the airport together by bus. When we arrived there, we got our boarding passes and student id.



We were divided into two flights, at 4.30 and 5.40 in the morning. We used Lion Air, and at first I was a little bit skeptical with the plane and the flight because man, its Lion Air. But Thank God everything went fine.

When we arrived in Bali, it was around 8.30 in the morning. We were then divided into three groups and three buses, and we went straight to the first destination which was Taman Ayun Temple.



In this trip, we went mostly to temples, because we used probably one of the cheapest travel agent using the cheapest package to cut down the price.



We took a stroll around the temple, because we were not allowed to get in. Temples in Bali is a very good place to visit, but we always have to make sure that we wear the proper attire to respect the cultural and religious norms they have there. Women who are in their menstruation period are not allowed to enter temples, they can only see the temples from the outside.

We had lunch at Saras Restaurant. The food here was so-so, maybe because we didn’t really look for any good food to eat at but rather a restaurant with a building big enough for 150 people lol.

The next stop was Bedugul! Bedugul was located quiet high above the sea level, so the weather was a little bit colder. It was raining hard when we went there, so most of us rent umbrellas for 10k. Oh, and took cute selfies!




I posted some of the pictures of me while in Bali on my instagram. We legit left our umbrellas to take pictures under the rain to get the perfect picture! It was worth it though.

I recommend you to bring some clothes so when it rains, you can change your tops right after that so it doesn’t get cold. I brought a very light-weight clothes and immediately change myself so I didn’t get sick.

Fun tips, also wear a very light bottoms. Not short, but light. Visiting temples requires you to always wear something below the knee or wear sarong and sash. In the temples I’ve mentioned, they didn’t provide you with it (at least not that I see), so its better to just wear something appropriate before hand.

Some of my friend wore jeans and it was very uncomfortable when it was raining, while I was wearing a black long loose ankle pants and it felt so good because it got dry faster than jeans.

After Bedugul temple, we went to Tanah Lot. Tanah Lot was also a very well-known place in Bali. It was one of the best sunset spot, but sadly it was cloudy when we were there. You didn’t have to wear long bottoms here, because we didn’t actually enter the temple.


There are quiet a lot of local shops on our way to Tanah Lot, where people sell mandalas, sarong, cute sandals, t-shirts, etc. The price was actually very cheap, if you are good at bargaining. Usually they will give you high prices at first (especially if they know you are foreigners and/or students! They think you are not good at bargaining), but actually you can get a lot of good deals!



Another pro tip, I peed a lot in Bali. I drink water and bought water bottles ALL THE TIME. Usually you have to pay 2k when visiting toilets in Bali, so always prepare cash money just in case!


After Tanah Lot, we went to Kuta for dinner. We went to a restaurant called WongSolo which serves Javanese meal. Again, I am not going to recommend the food here because when we were traveling we didn’t really look for good food but rather a place with big place for all of us to sit.

It was the first day! I am going to upload my journey on Day 2, which was my personal favorite, on the next post. Stay tune!


Searching for Syria

I went to a summer camp to Bergen, Norway, last year. And while I was in there, I learned about refugees. It was actually not a term I am familiar with, but learning about them, and meeting two of them in person in the camp taught me a lot of things.




plural noun: refugee

a person who has been forced to leave their country in order to escape war, persecution, or natural disaster.

It is not a big thing in Indonesia apparently, because we are lucky enough to be in a safe zone with no war currently, but it may be different from other countries like Turkey, Lebanon, Egypt, etc.

I remember meeting a refugee from Syria in the camp. He was a very nice guy, and he has been separate from his family all his life. He didn’t remember who they are, as he moved to Norway alone as a little kid. When I met him, he was living in a refugee camp that the Norwegian government provided for people who had to escape their countries because of war.

There are actually problems caused by this, because a lot of developed countries which accepted these refugees started to see some economic problems. They need money to take care of this people, but technically these refugees are not their citizens. Even more and more refugees are coming each year, and it started to get overwhelming for them.

Not only for the money, but also the places to shelter them. Refugee camps need a quiet big space to keep a lot of people, while the government also need the places maybe to build something else for the people.

These refugees have to wait for a lot of years to get their asylum, and there is a very big chance for them to get rejected. After that, the only option for them is to leave the host country.

While waiting for the asylum to come out, it will be very hard for them to find jobs, to go to school, hospitals, etc. And don’t even mention about them having to get comfortable in a totally new environment. To live in a society that may be judging them based on the country they are trying so hard to leave.

Not only that, they also have language barriers with them.

They feel like they do not belong. The countries they are suppose to grow up in, safely, are now damaged. And they are growing up in a developed, totally new country, that doesn’t seem to accept them. I have no idea how that must feel, but even to imagine it makes me so sad.

I remember that in the camp, we had this group discussion about what we should do to them. What can we do to help them. Some of my friends said that we should all donate together, even those whose country does not have any refugee camps. We were trying to find a way out to solve this problem for these refugees.

Today, when I was surfing the internet, I found this link in the bottom part of the desktop. It was an ad, made by The UN Refugee Agency together with Google to spread awareness about refugees in Syria.


You see that purple-colored words? Yes, it appeared when I opened Google Chrome. When you click it, it will take you to a very interesting website which will educate a lot of people, especially teenagers like me!

You can help the refugees in three ways:

  1.  By sharing it to your social media platforms, or writing it down in your blog like what I did right now, to spread awareness to a lot of people that things like this is happening across the globe and we need to finally take actions for it. The website will let you directly sharing it to your Facebook and Twitter account, also giving you a direct link to copy.
  2. By donating for these refugees. You can donate monthly or just one time with the amount you want. Everytime you type in an amount, they will show you how that money can help the refugees. For example, when you donate 50$, you could provide synthetic mats to prevent five newly arrived families every month from sleeping on the ground. It is hosted by WorldPay.
  3. By joining and take pledge to support the refugees and stand #WithRefugees. All you have to do is fill a form where they will ask for your name, your country, and email.

The website is very interactive and educating. Reading this and remembering about the story he told me back in the camp made me feel grateful to be born in this country. Despite the others things that has been happening in our country for the past days, the hatred, the bombing in Kampung Melayu, the caning in Aceh, I still do believe we can do better.

We have and will always have hope. We deserve to always have one.

And after all,  these refugees do, too.


unrequited love

Things change so fast, literaly. The last time I posted this, I am super proud with Ahok and Jokowi and now, while writing this, it has been more than a week since Ahok was sentenced for two years of jails as he was found guilty of blasphemy, a law that I never really understand anyway.

I was very sad when I knew that, because to me, Ahok is more than just a person. As a triple minority in Indonesia (chinese, a christian, and a woman), he is my symbol of hope. A hope that after all, people like me can fight for something and make things better. That being a minority doesn’t mean we have to be afraid to show our love to this country.

But to saw Ahok sentenced for two years of jail, it broke my heart. I know and we all know that he a good person. That all he ever wanted is to build this wrecked city to be better each day, and to take care of his people. All he ever wanted was to show his never-ending love for this city, and trying to give all he has for this country.

And yet, people still hate him. People still managed to point out his flaws and have this much hatred for him. People are brave enough to go on streets and screams bad words about him, death threads, and even insult his ethnicity.


My most favorite subject in school is History. I love them, because I like to read stories. I like to know that behind everything, there is always a story about it. But when I learned about what happened in 1965, and what happened at 1998, I felt super sad.

Its just, heartbreaking.

To read all this stories about people whose case were never justified by the law at all, the pain they will always have to bear for the rest of their live, the pain of someone they love so deeply died tragically, just because of their ethnicity. They died, never knowing what did they do wrong.

It scares me how much hatred can someone have in their heart towards someone else, just because they have different beliefs and culture. I wondered how many people still get panic attacks and nightmares about this event, long after this. The horrible horrible day.

No one deserve it.

And now, Ahok doesn’t deserve this either.

After everything that happens last week, I felt broken. Because no matter how hard I try, maybe I will never get recognized. Because I am just a minority. Because I am Chinese, instead of Indonesian. Even though I actually never even went to China before. I have been living in Indonesia for all my life.

And yet, for some people, I am still someone that is bad. Someone that should never be allowed to live here. Even though Indonesian is my mother-tounge. Is being an Chinese-Indonesian a curse?

Well, I guess it was never my fault. I never chose to be born this way. And I don’t think we should ever hate on others just because we have different beliefs or culture. Instead of trying to unite the difference, we need to learn how to celebrate it.

We don’t get stronger by being the same. We don’t get better by only sharing and being with those who have the same opinion as ours. But we grow when we unite, when we learn to tolerate others. We grow smarter by learning from others and sharing with others with different thoughts than us.

Sadly, some people still don’t realize that.

After this, there will only be two choices. To be sad because of it, and then be afraid, or to finally stand up and fight for what we think is right. My dream is to help and support more people like Ahok, because maybe the last time, he didn’t get enough of it. We let him fight the battle alone.

But after Ahok, we realize that we need to be together! We need to fight and support the right and clean goverment, and also criticize them when they did something wrong. That is how things work.

Because at the end of everything, this is still our country. Our city. The future is in our hands, and if we don’t stand up for our opinions. Instead of being afraid and shutting ourselves down, we need to finally stand up and contribute to this country.

I believe that after all, Indonesia is better than all of this.

And yes, maybe for now, this love I have for this country is going to be a one sided love.

And for once, it’s okay.

Real and undefined love never need to be requited anyway.


Indonesia’s Symbol of Hope

Youtube, like we all know, has been a very big part of our life. Me, personally, spent almost an hour on two watching youtube videos form my phone. I am subscribed to numerous channels and most of them inspire m so much from day to day.

Ever since 2014 or early 2015, Youtube has been also a very big part in technology. A lot of teenagers started posting their videos there, and as you might now, the term ‘youtuber’ slowly grow. The same thing happened in Indonesia on 2016.

Back then, I think that being a youtuber and being able to connect with your subscriber, to be able to make them feel somehow related to each others are just so amazing. People all over the world can watch the same videos and ended up discussing about that problem or topic and finding solutions.

I am even happier when I found out that the former President of the USA, Barack Obama, decided to take this whole youtube thing seriously. He invited three youtubers, Hank Green, Bethany Mota, GloZell Green back on 2015 to the White House and they were there to ask him questions.

He actually have had this idea, which was to make a White House youtube channel to connect directly and talk directly to the people of USA with video screens back in 2007 when he was still a senator. He was interviewed and stated that, and here he is!

Obama knew that Youtube have been a very big part of the youth life and he was trying to rech out and connect to us! These youtubers asked questions that the press might never asked about, and most of them were asking questions that were relatable to the youth!

The subcribers of those youtubers also sent their questions regarding same sex marriage, immigrants, student laws, the healthcare, cyber-bully, and a lot more other things. They sent those questions online with the hashtag #YoutubeAskObama. I remembered watching it for the first time and felt so happy, to see a leader willing to listen to the youth’s voices, and answer their questions!

The next year, in the beginning of 2016, Obama once again did the same thing. He invited three youtubers,  Destin Sandlin, Ingrid Nilsen, Adande Thorne. Ingrid is one of my favorite youtuber ever, so I was more than happy to see her name, making it all the way to the list.

Ingrid asked him about American’s fear of terrorism, women’s health, marriage equality, the race to cure cancer, and a lot more. It was so much fun to watch it. I feel that it has come the time when the government starts to listen to its people, connect and reach out to them.

In the beginning of 2016, I secretly wished that Indonesia, one day, will finally have the same government. The kind that listen to the people, especially the youth. When Jokowi was elected, I have this slightest hope, that maybe, under his regiment, he will make it come true.

His smallest son, Kaesang Pangarep, is also a youtuber. He uploads vlogs about his daily life and some skits. He is now studying in Singapore at a university and uploads contents quite often.

He then also posted some vlogs when he was travelling, be it by himself, or while he was away, accompanying his dad at work. The loving relationship between him and his dad was just so adorable in alot of way.

Some of his subscribers started to ask for mor videos with his dad, and joking around about this idea that maybe his dad can start a youtube channel too, where he can do vlogs and talk about his work to the Indonesian people.

On September 26th 2016, Kaesang posted this one particular video, where he spent an afternoon practising archery with his dad. I thought it was an ordinary video, just like his other vlogs with his dad. But then I was beyond shocked to see that Jokowi also posted a video! The title was #JKVVlog.

Not only that, he later on posted a\even more videos about his daily activites in a vlogging style, and it was there, with all his others diplomatic, ‘more serious’ videos. He posted about watching the football game, his trip to Ambon, his plan to build a highway in the middle of the sea, his lunch with King Salman who visited Indonesia on his trip to Asia (which became so famous and reached more than a million views). He even posted  video about the birth of the baby lambs he has in Istana Bogor!

I never think I can be more proud of my president than right now. He literally shows us, the people, every activity he has, his experiences, his work. He reaches out to his people, finally!

But then, a month ago, on March 27th 2017, he (finally) posted a video, in which he answers a lot of questions he got from kids all over Indonesia. It was titled as #JokowiMenjawab. This, is where my actual dream came true.

He answered questions about Jokowi’s favorite music, band, albums (which was rock of course), music, digital economy, and creativity, also creative industries. Even though he only answered like 4 questions, it was a new milestone for Indonesia! Or well, at least, to me!

Right now, he already had 3 videos like this posted in his youtube channel, and I am still waiting for more to come!

This is making me so happy because not only listening to their people, the government actually start to find a way to connect with us, the youngsters. They want to listen to us, to know our opinion, to give advices. They are willing to help, and to show the people that they will always listen.

The youth are the ones responsible for the future of the country, and therefore we need to educate them in the right way. We need to listen to them, and let them grow to be even better. We have to give them opportunities, a chance. It makes us feel appreciated. Really, really, appreciated.

Not only by posting these video on Youtube, Jokowi once also invited a couple of Indonesian youtubers, Bayu Skak, Agung Hapsah, Bob, and some others to accompany him to one of his presidencial duty. In other trip to NTT and Manado, he invited Kevin Hendrawan and Arief Muhammad to join him.

In this video, I remembered what Agung Hapsah said; “I learned that to be a good leader, you have to have a good relationship with your people, because the leader and the people actually need each other. I learned that sometimes, in order to solve a problem, you need to get down and talk directly to the people so they will understand your message.”

So, I guess, after all, I am very lucky to be born in this magnificent country, city. Yes, I am a proud Indonesian. Oh, and despite the news about Indonesia and its radicalization, I am still proud.

We (still) have hope.


Jihad Selfie: it could have been me, or you

Last Sunday, I went to PwC Indonesia building with my mom, to attend an event, in which we watched a short documentary called Jihad Selfie, and later on had a discussion about it with the director and the main character of the film.

Jihad Selfie is a documentary produced and directed by Noor Huda Ismail, the founder of Yayasan Prasasti Perdamaian or The Institute for International Peace Building in 2008. The purpose of this organization is to help former convicts and ex-terrorists to start their new life.

In this documentary, he investigated the way ISIS recruit new members, especially Indonesian young men and women. The documentary were never released publicly, but has been played in numerous countries, such as London, Melbourne, Turkey, and so on.

It was a very eye-opening documentary, showing us how important and dangerous social media can be. How people can be attracted and even worst, inspired to do such violent acts towards other human being.

The documentary was about Akbar, one of an Indonesian man who was smart enough to get a scholarship to study in one of the school in Turkey, who was feeling a dilemma, because one of his friend has asked him to join ISIS in Syria.

It also showed a lot of interviews with various men all around Indonesia, asking them and learning more about the reason people are interested to become a jihadists. It was such a well-made documentary.

Noor Huda Ismail is a very inspiring man, and I was very surprised to see him as one of the TEDTalks speakers back in 2014, which was an event I really like like to listen to quiet frequently.

He told them that he used to had a really good friend, who was very smart and kind and loving, who went to Pakistan to study abroad, as he got scholarships, unlike Huda, who decided to study in the West countries.

Years later, when he was working at The Washington Post, he was assigned to cover the news about Bali Bombing. When he arrived there, he saw all the blood and dead bodies lying, and he think to himself; “what kind of human being have such power to do such violence? and why bali? bali is indonesia’s main tourism site, what will happen to the rest of the country?”

Later that day, when the policemen were passing on papers with pictures of the perpetrator of the bombing, he was very surprised to see his own friend there, becoming one of the self-bombers. He was so shocked.

It could have been him.

I don’t think I am adequate enough to talk and put my opinion on radicalism yet, but I am very interested in sharing this documentary to you. Not only that radicalism should be something we start to worry about, we somehow need t educate ourselves and those around us to prevent themselves from getting into the trap of doing violent acts.

Nowadays, these organizations recruit their new members from social medias, especially Facebook. They posted every new update and news happening in the war zone via social medias, which allow everyone to watch it. To share it. This could be very dangerous.

Internet is place where we can find new friends and learn more about other country, but we should always be aware of it. A lot of their new members nowadays, unlike ten years ago, who were uneducated and didn’t really understand what are they doing, are now educated, young men. And they joined that organization because of their own will.

Just like Huda, and his beloved friend, it could have been us. It could have been m, you, any of us. So yes, I think that this is such an important thing to share with you.

For more information about this, you can go and check their official website,, and read more of their articles there. The message that they are bringing may be very important for you.

Stay safe, people.